“I see you…”

It was a few brief moments,
orchestrated over the course of 4 days…

Moments that I could have easily missed,
if not for the first one…

Moments that were, without a doubt, divinely masterminded to say,
“I see you, Amanda…”

The first moment…

He forgot to set his alarm and raced through his morning to get to school. Knowing he didn’t have time for breakfast, I threw some eggs in a pan and had it ready when he walked into the kitchen. “Mom, is this for me?”

“Yep.” When I set the food in front of him, he did something that shocked my system…

He reached out, squeezed my hand and held it, waiting for me to look up at him before he said, “Thanks, Mom.” As I met his gaze, I swear I heard his soul say, “I see you.”

I didn’t think I needed that type of acknowledgment, especially over a breakfast, but the lump in my throat told me otherwise.

The second moment…
(the next day…)

“Now, I’m going to ask you to do something that is going to stretch you. I want you to look your partner in the eye and keep looking while you listen to my voice.”

The beautiful fourteen-year-old girl sitting across from me looked everywhere else – at the floor, behind me, at the ceiling, at the workshop facilitator. I waited as she shifted her gaze and body, giggled nervously, and then finally gripped the side of her chair and looked into my eyes.

The minute she met my gaze, tears filled her eyes and fell softly down her cheeks.

I immediately knew her, and exactly what she needed…

I see you, sweet girl. I see your pain. I see your discomfort. I see your confusion. I see that no one in your life has ever really seen you. I see your beauty. I see your dreams. I see your power.

It didn’t take long for her to relax into the exercise, and all of the attitude and armor she’d brought into the room melted before my eyes.  

This is what he did for me yesterday.

The third moment…
(the very next day…)

Someone I love texted:

“Prayer request: I am going to hang out with him tomorrow. We are supposed to talk about… Please pray for clarity, confidence, and courage… I honestly have no idea what to expect…”

Almost without thinking, I began texting what I knew she needed to hear:

I am standing with you. Because I know you – who you really are.

Smart. Clear. Beautiful. Lovable. Fun.

Connected to your heart and your truth.

You are not:

Confused. Powerless. Unworthy. Unlovable. Not good enough.

And all of that other sh*t flying through your head.

You have everything you need. You will have the right words.

You will be your powerful self. Your truth, coupled with your love, is your power.

And you will stand in it, and you will be able to handle whatever comes.

I love you.

Her tearful response confirmed it was what she needed.

How did I know?

Because that’s what I needed 2 days before when my son looked me in the eye.

Because that’s what that sweet girl needed when she looked into my eyes.

Because it’s what we all crave,
and maybe even get
,
even when we don’t know it

The fourth moment…
(the next day…)

I was flipping through the pics from the Rewrite Your Story Retreat I facilitated earlier this month, looking for the shots I took during the “What I See In You” body art exercise.

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OMG, that looks like…

I jumped up from my desk to look at my vision board.

Could it be?

I could barely believe what I was seeing.

One of the participants had drawn on my arm almost the exact same picture that I had put on my vision board in January of this year.

“I see you, Amanda…” the still, small voice ripped through the silence of my office. “I see you the way you see others…I’ve always seen you the way she saw you at your retreat, the way you imagined yourself when you were drawing that picture on your vision board.

And since you were little, I’ve put people in your life who have really seen you and reflected all of the beauty, love, and power they’ve seen back to you. The family members, the teachers and professors, the employers, the coaches, the clients, your husband, and obviously your son…

IMG_0643You are smart, clear, beautiful, lovable, fun, and connected to your heart and your truth. You are not confused, powerless, unworthy, unlovable, not good enough, and all of that other sh*t flying through your head.

You have everything you need. You have the right words. You can be your powerful self. Your truth, coupled with your love, is your power. And you are standing in it, and you will be able to handle whatever comes.

I love you.”

As the tears fell, I made it my mission to say, “I see you” to every person who crosses my path – with my eyes, my touch, and my words…

Whatever it takes…

So…

I see you.

I see your desires and dreams to leave the world better than you found it.

I see your pain, your disappointment, and your frustration.

I see that you know that there’s more for you.

I see the old stories that are making it hard to move forward.

And…I see the Love that’s trying to get to you.

You are smart, clear, beautiful, lovable, fun, and connected to your heart and your truth. You are not confused, powerless, unworthy, unlovable, not good enough, and all of that other sh*t flying through your head.

You have everything you need. You have the right words. You can be your powerful self. Your truth, coupled with your love, is your power. And you are standing in it, and you will be able to handle whatever comes.

And I see that the One that orchestrated these moments for me is orchestrating some for you today – so that you know that you are seen and loved.

2 thoughts on ““I see you…””

  1. You’re an amazing writer Amanda…writing is still on my bucket list. I appreciate the reminders and I’m very happy to see you meeting some of your own stretch goals. Gotta love Ursula!

  2. Amanda, it is a rare gift that you have for putting words together with simple messages that are so profound. You have a knack for changing the way everyone view words, writing ,and self- analysis.. You make people think.
    Blessings and prosperity.

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